I'm getting very jaded.
Things have been happening lately,
and they're obviously undesired.
Initially I thought that it was just an isolated case,
and there was still hope...somewhere, somehow.
But now, I'm so cynical about it,
because if there's not much happiness going around,
what makes me think I'm the lucky one who will be happy in the end?
That's all I wish for..for now.
I just want everyone around me will be happy, and myself as well.
Maybe we're going through these hard times to toughen up?
It is through all these nonsense that we realise how weak we are,
but the bestest friends will always be there.
Things have changed,
and I think I've grown up a bit from the experience, albeit the cynicism.
And then when I thought I was ready to,
things were just not meant to be.
It is a sign from above that I have to wait.
Now I know, I'm not ready at all.
A friend asked me when would I be ready....
All I can say is.. I need some time.
3 years gone in a flash.
Nope, I'm not hoping for things to be the same,
but I need to get rid of the cynicism.
Give me time.